Monday, August 11 @23:03
once again, i got to experience my "new" old boring life! back to working 8-5 like i used to in the past is something which i had really disliked.. is life meant to be so routine? working 5 days a week, and resting for 2 days, before u work another 5 days and rest 2 days.. and the whole cycle repeats itself.. oh well.. accept it.. that's life in the society.. it had onli been the first day and i am already missing my shift life.. having to work AM shifts, PM shifts, nite shifts, working on saturdays, sundays.. at least more variations and it doesnt feel so boring...kinda, missing my shift mates as well.. missing all that stupid things we do together.. having all that fun and laughters.. having dinner like a family in the dining table.. not that we cant do that anymore.. but as job scope and working hours changes, the amount of interaction time reduces by so much more~ true enough, life has to move on.. BUT never forget to include me in shift outings etc!! although u guys keep calling me by a different name since u all come to a conclusion that i always teaches u guys things.. anything dunno call me.. anything error just call me.. any questions also call me.. but i feel that in one way or another, u guys have taught me a lot as well.. in fact, thru all that interactions, i develop and constantly improve my interpersonal skills while u guys learn the hard facts.. so, thank you so much for all that things that u guys had taught me!! well, doing something new doesnt necessary mean something bad.. its afterall, how we see it.. like i told my trainer today.. if u are in a pile of shit, whatever u do does not change the fact that u are still in that pile of shit.. be it resist, accept, complain, reject, nono, nothing is gonna change at all.. so if u are in that shit, just accept it and make it the best shit u have ever been in.. if u dun stir up the shit, then the smell is not gonna come out at all!! but when i mentioned shit, they laughed.. so i do not know if i got my point across or did they treat it as a joke.. but i do mean it.. and btw, i didnt came out with this thing.. it was from a Major from the SAF in CPC (and i still remember exactly where he said this).. i forgot his name but i still have his name card with me =Dits been several days since the irritating issue mentioned in the previous post had passed.. yup.. its true that u apologized and am sorry for saying that all those things but i am not like u.. u feel sad, then u go to bed, wake up, and u are back to the original person u were as before and do not ponder on what happened before.. i am different.. it is like what Chineses always say.. spilled water cannot be retrieved back.. and even if it can be retrieved back, there is bound to be a small percentage that is unretrievable.. it is like a knife wound that would eventually become a scar after it heals.. the feeling is not nice and personally, Me, Myself and I find it hard to talk to u.. u found whatever i say irritating.. if i was to talk to u face-to-face or over the phone, i feel that i would have nothing to talk about at all.. u found the natural-me to be irritating.. so i have to put on a mask like those chinese opera performers in order to talk to u.. i have to think and consider if what i am going to say probes into your personal life, whether its about u, or how u would feel if i were to say it.. i wouldnt have so much time to think and consider about so much things if i were to talk to u thru the above 2 means.. so, this is when we have to appreciate the SMS technology (which was invented by dunno which smart ass).. SMSes allows me to have time to think n consider how each and every single mini, minor thing i am going to say could ever happen to your feelings.. so hey, its a good system eh? but i suppose, i should be fair - i ought to give u time to see if u still want to befriend such an natural,irritating me.. so till then..thank you 380 and shuyi for your support and concerns.. i truly appreciate it loads.. =D its late now.. and anyone agrees with "women needs to have her beauty sleep"? well, i am so going to get my handsome sleep now..................
still waiting.